Tuesday, April 14, 2015

MOTIVATION GoGoGo

Just went back from an enjoying BBQ..
Well I thought it was not going to be that fun at the beginning (what in my mind)
I was actually quite reluctant to join this kind of gathering at first
Due to I'm not speak well in English
It's kind of hard for me to communicate with them
To share daily life
To share the childhood stories
Oh gosh
So sorry
I'm from typical Chinese educated background
Sometimes I can't even understand their questions
Or joke
So I'll just feeling so stress to sit down with them during out of office hour
(How to improve my speaking skills? in English of course)


Ok...
Back to the topic of today's BBQ
We have a tasty steak 
Great wrap bread with salsa
Great salad
Great dessert
And then

Great charcoal
(ok well.. this was the only photo i took)

You don't even need to open the packet
Just burn the red part
Then the whole thing will just burn
And.. tada..
You have your BBQ fire done :)
Cool right?
I like this idea

All the food are preparing by my boss and colleagues
So embarrassing
I didn't bring anything
But at least I contributed idea
"To move down the BBQ tray!"
OMG
It was so far from the fire
I don't think the meat will be cooked 
haha..

While eating and chit chat-ing
Suddenly 
My handsome Swiss boss asked me
"Aris are you happy?"

oopss...
My OS was like
"not really.. I was so stressed since I came to Singapore.."
But of course I have to smile and answered
" Yes sure, I'm happy :) "

Ok
Come to the main point for today's blog post
He was actually trying to let me know that 
The development need to be speed up
Of course with one manpower it's insufficient 
(Thanks God that he realized that)
So he is in the middle of hiring more programmers from other countries
Maybe senior than me in terms of technical
But I will be the one who handle them
As he told me that 
They found that I can understand more on business
I will find alternate solutions to suit business requirements
Other programmers are like really programmer
Just do technical things
But do not think in terms of business logic

Thanks for the words man
It really motivates me
He lets me know more on my strength
All these while I was just so stressed
Due to I'm quite weak in technical

I have no confidence to handle task
Always work in a stressed mode
I really need to change my attitude
Hope after tonight I can work with strong motivation

Do not be afraid
Walk with faith
I know Jesus is with me

And thanks my love one who always encouraging me
Although he always ask me to go back Malacca
(kind of demotivated me.. haha)

Speak in English for the whole day
Well
End my 14042015 (Tuesday)
with an English blog post
Haha..
What an English day
wah-piang-eh
*** Manglish. ***


Good luck to Aris Lee
All is well ^_^


Bid4Ad Singapore Team









Friday, April 3, 2015

2015 年的圣周

今年
在糊里糊涂的情况下
出了水痘

碰巧就在圣周
诊断自己患上了这“病毒”
人说
年纪越大才出水痘
就越辛苦

那天二话不说
在新国看了超贵的医生
就赶着回来马六甲了
庆幸马上回来
不然我就得在异乡养病
到时才是真正可怜

但
看来主耶稣愿意让我成受更多
我竟也在这个时候大姨妈来探访
可谓
苦上加苦
雪上加霜
T_T

今天度过了挺苦的一个下午
不过只要想想
主耶稣身上的鞭伤和钉痕
就不敢抱怨什么

庆幸自己是有信仰的
不致于不断埋怨
心情不愉快

相反的
自己是抱着挺感恩的心情
在度过这段时日

总感谢主让自己在适当的时机
出了水痘
若在大婚之日
那就更头痛了

至于工作
心
是一直担心 牵挂的

打从做这份工作起
自己给自己的压力
没有停过
的确
这是一份看起来挺自由
老板很随性的工作
但
自己做起来
有时还挺吃力
挺害怕
总是见步行步

想要在病假期间
把进度赶回来
我办到吗

宝贝常说
别干了 回来吧
多么吸引我

但自己有时
就是有该死的好胜心
总想着
我不能那么懦弱
因为无法承受
就离开

总得完成些什么
才光荣离开吧

最终
只把自己逼得压力

人
总有自己有用的时候
也许
这个职位
比较不属于我呢
也许

该不该放下那该死的
好胜心
自尊心 呢

今天
就是要把几天的心情写下
只有几分钟时间
就能把心情
轻描淡写的记录下来

让日后的小橘
有机会感受今日 2015 Good Friday 的小橘的心情


今天参与了线上苦路
感谢制作团队的用心
很棒!

^_^